butterfly: (Whither Thou Goest -- Fraser/RayK)
I just got an anon comment on a six year-old post about Fraser/Ray K. Let me share it with you:
Why do you dislike Ray Vecchio so much?!

RayV takes care of Benny (and it's stupid of you to be offended by a nickname for Fraser that is given in affection) and does more for him than needy RayK ever does. RayV demonstrates, over and over, that he unconditionally loves Benny, and it was obviously very difficult for him to leave him for the job in Las Vegas. RayV almost sobs over the phone when he's trying to say goodbye to Benny, but can't exactly explain to him what is happening.

RayV also shows genuine affection to Benny. Just count the number of times that he touches him or puts his arm around him - and Benny does the same to him. I hardly think that Fraser would consider him to be someone that "he could not take home" - if you mean that he's ashamed of RayV, that's wrong; he demonstrates that he is proud of him several times.

I think you really need to watch Seasons 1 and 2 so you can get a better grasp of RayV and his love with Fraser - a strong friendship that can EASILY be translated into slash. Right now, you seem like you're badmouthing RayV and dismissing his relationship with Fraser to make the case for F/K slash - but you're not very convincing.

Fandom wars never die, I guess. They just go anon.

(note: I'm baffled that they think I dislike Ray V. I'm very fond of him. But I don't find him attractive or ship him romantically with Fraser. That's... not the same as disliking him)
butterfly: (Project -- Cher)
Yes, for the first time since August, 2005, I have updated my website with fanfic.

Friday, January 2nd, 2009:
Updated Fanvid Index. list of fanfic added )
butterfly: (Whither Thou Goest -- Fraser/RayK)
I'm sure that all due South fans are duly standing on tiptoe this day, March the Eleventh (a date which, incidentally, makes properly dating the third-fourth seasons of the show a complete nightmare).

That friend of mine watching the show recently saw "Some Like It Red", an episode which never fails to delight me. I love the way Fraser bonds with the girl and the way Paul Gross doesn't at all go over the top (and the way he has really nice legs). This is also another of those episodes where Vecchio just strikes me as so completely and absolutely straight (of course, so did Buffy. Clearly this should be taken with a grain of salt).

Next week is finals week at school, so I'm a bit stressed out right now. Plus, there are financial and living changes that are possibly coming up to think about. I'm going to try to catch up with non-school life during Spring Break.
butterfly: (Whither Thou Goest -- Fraser/RayK)

I hooked a friend of ours ([livejournal.com profile] thegrungediva) on due South and she's now watching it in order. Tonight, she was on the last disc of S1, so I watched Invitation to Romance, the very end of Heaven and Earth, and then all of Victoria's Secret and Letting Go with her (and roomie [livejournal.com profile] jic).

God, the Victoria arc guts me. spoilers for the whole series )

Rewatching that left me with the intense urge to go read some due South fic and meta, so if there's any cool new stuff out there, I'd love to know.

butterfly: (Whither Thou Goest -- Fraser/RayK)
So, I showed Pavlov's Bell at the Nearly New VVC show, but not quite the same one that existed before (because I, like George Lucas, can never quite let go of my work... that's probably the only time I'll ever compare myself to GL). So, if you saw and liked the vid before, I'd love to know what you think, and if you've never seen it, well, I would still very much adore knowing what you think.

Pavlov's Bell

Fraser risks the fall.

(divx file; 45.8 MB; zipped
also available as a smaller wmv file here (zipped))

Many thanks to [livejournal.com profile] paraviondeux for lending space and to [livejournal.com profile] jic for advice and support. Feedback is always appreciated.

Nobody knows
that's how I nearly fell.

butterfly: (Close -- Fraser (by tarar))

I'm in the process of quitting caffeine. I'm down to one can a day, and plan to be entirely quits of the addiction as soon as my current twelve-pack runs out. I believe that this is why I've had several low-grade headaches over the past few weeks (painful enough to make the idea of being social almost unbearable but not painful enough to make me give up on quitting, which is what happened every time I tried to give it up cold turkey). So, that'll all be done with soon, hopefully, and I can begin to again behave like an actual human being who is capable of two-way communication.

Just watched the first season of Slings and Arrows (a Canadian series about directing Shakespeare. In the first season, Paul Gross plays a director who comes back to direct Hamlet, the play that drove him to a nervous breakdown when he played the lead). It's fantastic (as can be judged by the fact that I watched all six episodes straight though and couldn't have stopped myself if I'd tried). Paul Gross is fabulous and beautiful and utterly unlike Benton Fraser (though, amusingly enough, his character in this also sees a ghost).

I'm up to the beginning of Season Six of SG-1 in my viewing with my mother (who was spoiled only to the extent that Daniel's character was leaving and coming back). She was actually really happy when Jonas got to be fourth on SG-1, as she was kinda nervous that they'd add another soldier or someone who was as unlike Daniel as possible (I refused to tell her who would be replacing Daniel, which, on reflection, comes across as a good move).

I've been rewatching due South with my roommate ([livejournal.com profile] jic) and our most recent episode was Perfect Strangers, wherein Ray is really cute in Canada and Fraser is really, really hot (though, honestly, I can say that about every single episode -- Fraser's hotness is a constant). I love RayK. So much. I love the RayK years. I love his playfulness with Welsh, the way his relationship develops with Frannie (I love, so much, that they moved Francesca into the station, and I adore her dynamic with Welsh an almost unbelievable amount), and, of course, with Fraser. I love just about everything about how Fraser and RayK develop as partners and friends.

Finished up Freaks and Geeks (conclusion: Lindsay should just have scenes with everyone, ever. She's great. And I loved especially loved her ending and also Daniel's, which was possibly the sweetest thing ever. "cool guys" Aw.).

Next up, I'm checking out Arrested Development. Will let y'all know how it goes.

butterfly: (Close -- Fraser (by tarar))

There was a person on my flist that I sent half of my dS tapes to and I promised to send the rest when I'd got the dvd versions. Unfortunately, I can't remember who it was and can't recall when it all happened (my memory is only good with things I've seen on tv, really), and a blind search of my lj hasn't discovered the post where I mentioned it.

So, if that person still wants the tapes, I can send them if you remind me who you are.

butterfly: (Whither Thou Goest -- Fraser/RayK)

So, I've been watching due South on dvd recently and discovered a) that I miss writing these guys and b) the order is different on the dvds than the order that I saw them (production versus showing... who knows, yeah?). As Asylum/Perfect Strangers/Dead Guy Running is what the order was with my tapes, that's the order that's kinda embedded in this series, despite now learning that the dvd order is Dead Guy Running/Perfect Strangers/Asylum. So, I'm going to stick with the former, unless I change my mind after writing the post for DGR.

Title: Thatcher's Clock (Perfect Strangers)
Summary: Ray thinks he's got this partnership thing with Fraser just about worked out.
Pairing: Eventual Ray/Fraser; residual Ray/Stella. Gen and/or pre-slash at the moment, though.
Rating: PG-13
Author's Notes: Tenth part in a twenty-four part series. They are, in essence, post-episode ficlets from RayK's perspective. Previous parts can be located here.
Disclaimer: I don't own a thing. Well, there's the computer I'm writing on. I also have a moderate collection of books and dvds. And... ah, yes, I own none of the characters mentioned in this story. That would be Alliance Atlantis and the Pauls.
'What do you mean, Ray?' Fraser asks, his eyes curious and bright; Mountie expression #152: I am giving you my full and complete attention... )

butterfly: (Pondering -- McShep (by forcryinoutloud))

I read the SGA story that's being recced up and down (freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose), and it really made me realize how secondary my SGA love is to my SG-1 love. spoilers for Freedom )

The story itself is, as the recs imply, quite well-written and it delves quite deeply into Rodney's character. It's a good story. But it's not for me (just as Farscape was a very good television show, but just wasn't for me).

This is not the first time this type of story has failed to appeal to me (I have never finished reading The End of the Road, a due South story where spoilers for Road )

). Even thinking about it makes me kinda want to throw things. And certainly not because it's a bad story.

It's not even the type of story itself -- I read angst and the getting over of angst. I'm not opposed on principle to spoilers for Road )

or spoilers for Freedom ). I've read and enjoyed stories about... well, actually, not that last one, as it's pretty specific, but about that kind of thing.

I think it's because when I read fanfiction, I like the vibe of the story to match the vibe of the show. That's part of why [livejournal.com profile] cesperanza's due South stuff works so well for me -- it's got the same sweet, slightly off-kilter vibe that the show has. When I'm reading fanfiction, I'm looking for more of what I love about the show, and that differs depending on the show.

Road and Freedom seem to inhabit slightly... less magical (more real?) realities than the shows themselves. And since a large part of why I love those shows is the sparkle and zing, I miss the gloss when it's stripped away.

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Pavlov's Bell

Fraser risks the fall, despite knowing just how much hitting the ground hurts.

(mpg file; 45.6 MB; zipped
also available as a smaller wmv file here (yousendit link)
if you'd like the link renewed, just comment and let me know)

Nobody knows
that's how I nearly fell.

You can also download the new version here.
butterfly: (Buffy fan)
God, I'm busy lately. I'm near the end of moving (I've been moving all this month and will do my final move this weekend, thank God, it'll be done with).

Anyway, I just thought I'd hang out a 'not dead' sign and let y'all now what's going on with me.

So, some thoughts I've been having recently:

I. The idea that a guy can't or shouldn't be a feminist is very disturbing to me -- in a perfect world, all men and women would be feminists, because the definition of a feminist is someone who believes that women deserve the same rights as men. So, I do hold the belief that Joss Whedon is a feminist, because he holds men and women to the same standards and because his female characters are as complex as his male ones. In fact, for each of his male characters, you can generally find a female equivalent, and vice versa. For every Spike you have a Faith, and for every Buffy you have a Wesley (okay, that one may only make sense in my own head, and I do plan to go into more detail on it another time).

II. Shuddering disgust at the idea of het!sex is something that confuses me. I personally know more than one person who has this reaction and it makes as much emotional sense to me as the idea that some women don't get off on boykissing. But this is because I'm very much sexually attracted to both men and women. Therefore, any kind of 'ew' reaction to attractive people getting snuggly baffles me. It's not the visual image of Jack/Sam (Stargate SG-1) that bothers me, it's the legal, emotional, and long-term ramifications. And this emotional confusion is as much an instinctive personal reaction as the disgust that triggers it. Like, I don't get people who do not love Frannie (due South). Frannie is beautiful, funny, and such a sweetheart. This is what I see when I look at her. Other people see different things -- just because I cannot understand what they see doesn't mean that what they see is invalid. I just don't get it. And that's okay, as long as people don't try to tell me that I'm wrong for seeing what I see.

III. I like season six of BtVS. I like season seven of BtVS. I liked them when they were airing. This does not mean that I am a) a moron, b) easily satisfied, or c) someone incapable of seeing the big picture. It just means that I got what I needed out of the show. Every person watching the show is watching for different reasons. Just because my reasons aren't the same as someone else's doesn't make them wrong, it makes them different.

Also, I'm trying out Adobe Premiere Pro for my Wes vid and trying to figure out if I want to invest in getting the program. Any suggestions from vidders in the audience?
butterfly: (Close to one another -- Fraser (by tarar)
Eeee! Inuit story! House told an honest-to-God Inuit story. I nearly died from the cute. An Inuit story! From someone not Fraser. The shock nearly killed me.

Inuit Story! How much do I adore House for using 'Inuit' instead of 'Eskimo'? So much. He uses the right word! Yay!

I may need a House icon.
butterfly: (Default)
Because I'm tired and have no original thoughts, I will meme.

a. Post a list of 10 TV shows you watch(ed).
b. Have your friends list guess your favourite character and/or pairing from each show.
c. When guessed, tell us why you like that character/pairing.
10 shows, all pairings and characters are now guessed )
butterfly: (Naked Angel)
Fraser and Angel actually have a lot in common. It's all about that knife-edge of control. Both of them are very alpha. Control freaks.

That's what Clark grows up to be. That's what Buffy learns to be. They have to keep themselves in check, always remember how strong they are in relation to the people around them. That other people are more physically fragile. It's a superpowered holding back control, which is slightly different than the control that Fraser and Angel types have, which is more the darkness-holding back control (though Fraser's darkness certainly isn't at the level of Angel's, he definitely has it).

I like the ones that constantly keep themselves in check. All that power and all that control - it's very hot.

And it's fun watching people walk that edge and seeing what can make them fall over. Well, not 'fun' so much as... fascinating, as Spock would say. Spock - one of our first fandom examples of this, actually. Stronger than human, deeply repressed, no wonder people found him intriguing. And his pairing with Kirk is also a familiar pattern - one who is repressed emotionally and the other who can provoke first to lose their control at times. A hug, some words a little too 'emotional', "have been and always shall be", the beginning of a new memory.

Buffy's an interesting case - at first, Buffy is the one who provokes (with Angel), while later, she is the one provoked (with Spike). As she grows older, we see her build that shell of control and protection around herself. And in Smallville, Clark is also 'becoming' before our eyes, as is Lex. It isn't always a pleasant process. Watching someone learn to put up more walls doesn't tend to be. Seeing the difference between Young Liam (Spin the Bottle) and the Liam is The Prodigal is such a sad thing. He's learned that trying to keep to his father's rules doesn't help him at all, and whereas in Wesley's case, Wes just kept trying to be evermore perfect (and this, I believe, would also apply to Fraser's case), Liam gave up, gave in, and let himself become what his father thought him to be.

I tend to think that Liam was an artist, even as a human - long years can give you knowledge and training, but they can't give you desire. I can't imagine Liam's father having much use for an artist type, though. Liam wanted to see the world, wanted to be somebody. He wanted the finest of things, wanted to take. But even as a demon, he didn't think that he could own. Darla certainly wouldn't stand for belonging to a creature that she'd made - made so that she could have the power in a relationship, so that she could be the one choosing a beautiful companion for once. Her own dear boy, as she'd been the 'dear one' to so many, including the vampire that sired her. No wonder Angelus thought it was amusing that Spike thought that his Sire was his.

There are moments that stay with me. In the Smallville vein, I can never forget Clark's Lex dream in Slumber. Without that, I might not have understood how deeply his terror ran about Lex discovering his secrets. In Angel, my mind flits back to Angelus, telling Darla that he planned to make Drusilla a vampire, and her expression. She tells him that "no one you keep up with you, not even me," and that's what I think about when I hear those words. He proposed something that she would have never considered. In Buffy, I will never forget what she said to Giles in The Gift - "I don't know how to live in the world if these are the choices. If everything just gets stripped away... I don't see the point."

Angel's experiencing that now. Everything just keeps getting stripped away. Now, he doesn't even have the surety of being chosen. He might not have believed in the Shanshu, but he never imagined that it could be about anyone but him. He knew that he was contested, that he was wanted, that the world would always fight to keep him. He can't stay near his loved ones. He can't confide in his friends. He can't do anything but his best and he isn't sure whether or not he's even on the right side. He's not sure what evil wants him to do. Any choice he makes could be the wrong one. Everything he touches, everything he loves, turns to ashes (sometimes literally, as in the case of Darla). And the worst parts are the parts that he did to himself. And he knows that, as surely as he knows that he'll never breach the gates of Heaven.

And the ones he loves are happiest without him in their lives. Now, we know that that isn't true (Buffy, for example), but I have no doubts that Angel believes it and that is what matters, especially this year.

Because this year is all about perceptions. Is Eve evil? Was Spike a ghost? Does being a monster change who you are, especially if your loved ones can't see a difference? What is hell? Everyone is something other than they are, especially the twisted momories crew. Appearances can be deceiving and just because someone seems to get along with people, doesn't mean he doesn't want to kill them for what they've done. Angel's standing in a graveyard in the middle of the night, and he's always wearing a mask. People can't always tell metal from flesh. And most obvious of all, sometimes the prophecy isn't the prophecy and the cup is too goldeny to truly be full of torment. And bruises aren't always real and the blood is just paint.

It's about what people believe to be true. Reality bends to desire. If you believe strongly enough and if your will is powerful enough, reality bends - at least it does in the Buffyverse. Buffy's done it many a time.

And what you feel to be true is what is true to you, regardless of the 'facts'. Buffy killed Angel, not because she physically killed him, but because she was willing to kill him.

Buffy closed a dimensional portal because she believed with everything inside her that the world wasn't worth saving if she couldn't save it this way.

Reality bends.
butterfly: (Bricklayer - Xander)
Interview questions from [livejournal.com profile] minim_calibre. And, as she said in hers, if you want, you can comment to this post and I'll ask you five questions.
*nsync, fandom, frogs, writers, and family )

On a totally different note, is it widely understood that the first/second season of due South are better, quality-wise? I mean, I probably shouldn't take TWoP as that serious a source, but even the people there who enjoy third/fourth season more seem to think that the earlier ones were higher quality. I think that they had a different sensibility, partly because of the exec. producer change, but quality is such a subjective thing at times. Certainly, I'd argue that the supporting characters (especially the women) were given much more depth in the later seasons, which I think speaks highly of the overall quality of those seasons. And I do think that Fraser was wearing a bit of a protective mask in the earlier seasons, because the Fraser we see in the later seasons (especially Call of the Wild) very much resembles the Fraser of the pilot movie.

I just paid for another six months of lj. Mostly because I liked being able to have and change icons. And I just changed about 20-30 of my interests. I didn't have Connor on there!
butterfly: (Default)
Again, too late to be posted in the challenge postings. The challenge was to have someone(s) watching someone(s) else. The other person(s) can or can't know he/she/they are being watched. And this would be my first due South fic ever. Exactly 100 words.

Black and Gold

I caught this morning morning's minion...

Though he might not have believed it anymore, she does have a moral compass. She knows right from wrong.

She just doesn't care. Not when it comes to passion or survival.

Or pride.

Before this moment, she'd have said that Ben would never forget her. She'd never considered any other possibility.

But there were candles in window and they weren't for her.

Victoria edged closer to the window, absently mouthing the familiar words.

Fall, gall themselves, and gash gold-vermillion.

There were candles in the window and Ben wasn't alone.

That had to be fixed.
butterfly: (Xandercrush)
I was lying in bed last night when it hit me.

Good for the Soul is about basic human decency and respect.

Which is so incredibly obvious, yet I hadn't thought of it quite that way. The story is about Fraser saying that no one has the right to insult another person, no matter how 'important' they might be.

No one person is more important than any other.

Which led me to thinking of Buffy and why our woman is so screwed up as of late. She's been basing people's worth on their supernatural gifts. And she was doing so well at the beginning of the season, too.

But then the First came and Buffy's been running on fear.

I lost sight of who Buffy was in First Date, that's really why I wrote the trio of drabbles. I was trying to find her again.

And I found her. And she's terrified. "It's not enough." And she's stopped thinking outside the box. She's letting the First dictate the rules.

She started thinking again in Storyteller. Both Willow and Buffy started using their brains again. Willow was smart, Buffy was strong, and Xander is either dealing or denying. It can be hard to tell, with him.
spoilers for Angel's latest episode )
Buffy is fighting something she can't touch. And while that also means that it can't touch her, it can reach her in other ways. In Storyteller, she uses the First's methods against it with Andrew. While she does take action in that scene, the important things are the words and the feelings.

And Buffy shouldn't be hard at all, but should be strong. The Slayer forges strength from pain. Not power. Strength.
butterfly: (Kicking ass - due South)
Fraser passive-aggressively manipulates Vecchio all the time and I really don't get the vibe that Ray realizes that Fraser is playing dumb. There's a moment, after he's just done it, when they pass by Elaine and she compliments him on his performance and Fraser is just all hat-spinning happy. Ah-ha! It's Pizza and Promises.

Also, I was expecting more from the 'two axes' moment. Such a big deal is made out of it and I didn't see the big dealness. Hmm. I thought it would be... stronger, I guess is the word I'm looking for.

I did see Ray/Zuko in Juliet is Bleeding.

Irene's "Who are you dancing with, him or me?" reminded me of Darla's, "It's not me you want to fuck." to Lindsey.

due South

Dec. 3rd, 2002 03:03 am
butterfly: (Kicking ass - due South)
I've seen all but 18 episodes of due South and haven't yet found one that I've disliked. It's the same deal as with Buffy - even in the not-as-good episodes, the acting, the characters, still make me care.

Although, there are episodes of Buffy that I am unlikely to rewatch. While I may not dislike any, that doesn't mean that I like them all.

And I'm finding the background on Fraser to be most illuminating. For example, thus far, the only times that I've heard Fraser swear were both to Gerrard, the man who killed his father. In the pilot, he calls him a son of a bitch, I believe. In Bird in the Hand, he says "damn". And on both of these occasions, he was alone with Gerrard. As I understand it, he swears in Flashback, when he has lost his memory.

And I must say that Bird in the Hand was brilliant. Both hilarious and touching. I was cracking up and then going, "Fraser." Dude, his dad accusing him of sulking. And then Fraser's... broken-heart speech.


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