Probably shouldn't post this. But. Yeah. My journal.

[butterfly]

Fuck.

Just, you know, I know that I'm basically worthless here. That I don't contribute and that mom's life would be a hell of a lot easier without me around.

I know that.

God, but that doesn't stop from making me feel like crap when she says it.

"You're just a drain on me."

Thanks. That's nice to know.

But I already knew it.

Fuck.

Fuck.

I'll just go to bed then. Stop fucking wasting precious electricity by being online.

Just.

It hurts so much. So much.

Comments

[beckynicky.livejournal.com]

Dude, is my mom coming to your house to make your life hell too?


I've learned that the truth is you know better. You always hope for more because she is your mom and that isn't what moms are supposed to do. Moms are supposed to love their kids and want them around and think their life is better because of their kids. I am sorry and you know what, I doubt she means what she says, but you know you aren't a waste, you aren't useless.

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

*hugs*