Probably shouldn't post this. But. Yeah. My journal.

[butterfly]

Fuck.

Just, you know, I know that I'm basically worthless here. That I don't contribute and that mom's life would be a hell of a lot easier without me around.

I know that.

God, but that doesn't stop from making me feel like crap when she says it.

"You're just a drain on me."

Thanks. That's nice to know.

But I already knew it.

Fuck.

Fuck.

I'll just go to bed then. Stop fucking wasting precious electricity by being online.

Just.

It hurts so much. So much.

Comments

[sugarhigh9104.livejournal.com]

Oh god, hon, that is just not right. My mom will do that sometimes, say things and she thinks they're little or that i'll forget because she's just tired but what i don't think she understands is that when a parent says something like that to you, it's imprinted in your brain and it just echoes there. I'm so sorry honey. You are amazing, AMAZING, and nothing but an absolute asset to this community and a joy to read about.

Anastasia

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

*hugs*

Thank you.