Life; also BSG

[butterfly]

Oh, fuck. So, today is the first. Of February. It's funny how time just sorta... passes. Anyway, I tried to do the crack_van last month and wow, was that a failure. I recced two fics and then managed to never rec again.

But, to be perfectly honest, it's been that kind of month. I still have comments from the last week in December to respond to, not including all the stuff that I haven't done in January. In any case, I have today off, and it's no longer January, so I'm going to try to reply to those comments today.

January was bad last year, too, now that I think about it. Perhaps I should place a warning on my journal next December: high chance poster will not respond until February.

I went to an Al-Alon meeting last Friday. I cried, which I always hate, so I'm torn about going back, because I suspect that I would cry again.

With regards to the Baltar/Roslin/Adama/Gaeta plotline, I found it fascinating and look forward to see more. I don't really want to expand on my thoughts regarding it until after whatever happens with the trial, though.

As far as I can tell, I'm only the second person on my flist who's rooting for Lee/Dee. Which is to say, I believed Lee when he said he loved Dee -- partly because of his truly pathetic moment in the hallway where, drunk, he panics and flails about looking for his wedding ring, partly because of the scene at the end, and partly because when Kara lays the option in front of him, he doesn't have an answer for her. Lee is a fucked up guy, but he always gets considerably more fucked up after spending time with Kara. He's right when he says that Dee is good for him. And, stupid as it sounds, sometimes people really don't realize how much something or someone means to them until they are right up against the brink of losing it.

Is he good for Dee? Hard to say. That's the real question in play here, for me. And I don't think they've answered it, one way or another.

I do think that Kara and Lee are actively bad for each other -- they make each other into worse people, the closer they get. And I find myself... incapable of cheering for that type of relationship (plus, the brother connection still weirds me out).

I am rather curious about the notion that, though Kara and Lee are both fucked up, because Kara embraces her fucked-up-ness, she's a better person. The idea that Kara being able to call herself a 'two-timing bitch' makes her healthier is... hmm, odd to me. By saying that, she's also trying to make sure that no one will hold her up to a higher standard than the one she's currently living -- Lee may not be living up to his own standards, but he's trying. And, to me, he certainly seems fully aware of his own fucked-up state -- he just doesn't use it as an excuse for why he can never change.

Mind you, while I was supporting the marriages of Lee/Dee and Kara/Sam, I was thrilled when I heard that Cally and the Chief had been fighting. But their relationship has always creeped me out -- marrying the woman who killed your last SO is kinda... icky. Seriously, I don't think that that'll ever stop creeping me out.

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