Damn, I used to be so... hard on myself.

[butterfly]

Which I recognized. I did notice that I was being horrible to myself.

I'm looking at old journal entries: 2001 era.

And I expected so little. I mean, I was so pleased and surprised that someone (fox1013! Hey, baby!) IM'd me.

Interestingly, I still have many of the same... faults? that I used to. I just don't think that they make me a horrible, hopeless person anymore. I still order pizza and pop if I don't feel like cooking. I still adore reading. Honestly, I do still get a geeky buzz when someone IMs me.

But I don't think I'm pathetic anymore. Yay for me.

And hey, in 2001, I remembered ET. And that I hated it. Now, I have no memory of seeing the movie. Possibly that's for the best.

I was very volatile back then. Ups and downs like... something that goes up and down a lot. A yo-yo? Doesn't sound drastic enough. Well, maybe it does when Mandy sings about it. A yo-yo it is.

Aww... and I didn't think that I could write slash. Ha! Take that, low self-esteem!

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[jic]

Ha! Let's hear it for growth! Cool!

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Yep. Totally.

Oh, and I do have work Thursday morning, so I think that we'll have to wait until the weekend.

Is there a new QAF next week?

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[jic]

Actually, no. They're premiering that het swinging/swapping whatever-the-hell it is thing.

Wanna still do something for the weekend if QAF isn't happening? I'm free from Saturday 3:30 to Monday 7:00

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Well, I am planning on visiting my dad this weekend, but Monday might be better for that than Saturday.

And I am going to do my absolute best to remember the things. And the Buffy finale.

[fox1013.livejournal.com]

*Waves*

You're one of the first MBTV people I became friends with, sweetie. I flove you. Always have.

*hugses*

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

Flove you back, darling.

I'd love to be on AIM at the same time as you, sometime soon. It'd be nice to chat real-time.