Sunnydale High Yearbook

Mom's moving, so we're going through all out stuff, and I found this.

For anyone who doesn't know, it's made up as if it's Buffy's yearbook - including cute comments by her friends on many pages and 'taped on' pictures.

But Xander's bit just made me go all, "aww". Still applies, even more so now:
Buff, in everyone else's book I'm writing stuff about "all the great times we had," but I'm not going to do that with you. We had great times, sure, but we had terrible, heart-tearing, scary times too, and those are the ones I'm gonna remember. Because those are the times when I got to know this amazing, brave girl. (That's you, even if you didn't get it.) And the really cool part? Even with everything that's happened? It's really just still starting.


And Angel's made my heart do a twisty thing -
Buffy - I have lived many years and never before had the chance to write in a yearbook. You gave me that and much more. As long as I am on this Earth, what we had lives on in me.

I am such a sap.

End of Days

Just thinking about favorite things. Specifically, the things of Buffy that immediately come to mind at the thought.

I have so many moments tumbling about in my head. A hug that lasted longer than usual, eyes that lit up like the 4th of July, a spotlight shining on blonde hair, two hands touching and two heads turning in unison, waiting for that corner, walking away without saying a word, standing up to claim an identity... millions of memories twisting and turning in my mind.

Sometimes, an entire episode is like that for me. Prophecy Girl, Innocence, Becoming; part two, Hush, Restless, The Body, Once More, With Feeling, Hell's Bells, Selfless, Chosen, among others. I think of an episode title and get a rush of mental images. Ripping off a cross, lifting up a rocket launcher, kissing someone good-bye, transparencies covered with hilarious and gruesome drawings, walking up stairs and turning to look back, reaching out for an answer that will never come, an ambulance racing by in the background, forever asking the whys, lost loves and lost friends, empowerment and choice and glowy light.

So many memories that belong to so many people. I suppose that's the reason that I'm watching so many vids nowadays. I know what that smile means, know why that person was standing there.

Even now, it's so weird to know that there aren't any new Buffy episodes coming. I mean, I'm adoring Angel but... even now, it's so weird.

Because it doesn't feel like it's over. Sometimes, I wonder if it ever will.