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The Black Wind in the Wheel of Time series is the scariest fucking thing that I've ever read about.

Just...

Eeep. Freaks me out so much.

Love it.

And yes, I am distracting myself.

Odd survey.

( Um... yeah. )

Another survey.

( It's about Christmas/Hanukah/Whatever. )

Normally, this would bother me.

Every other song with bad grammar bugs me. But If Only Through Heaven's Eyes, only inspires a tolerant grin. Because it's so pretty and sweet.

Non-survey stuff.

First off, thanks for all the birthday wishes. Y'all are sweet.

It's been an odd few days. Keeps going from extreme happiness to shock to sadness to happiness again.

I think that the quality that I value most in people is the ability to look beyond the surface of things. Look beyond the label 'boy band' or the title 'Buffy the Vampire Slayer to the quality that was there all along. And all of you have that quality. And now I'm getting all sappy and Giver-eske. (I love that book. It's probably my favorite short book.)

And I love that it doesn't matter that I have no idea no old most of you are, where you live, or what you look like. Because none of that stuff should matter.

Y'all have taught me so much. More than I could ever express. Through you guys, I've learned so much about life and about caring. All of you have, at times, amused and touched me. You've given me pretty pictures to squee over and deep philosophical statements to think about. You've taught me about other cultures, other religions(thanks, Em), other things that are just so incredibly amazing, even if I've done them, because I get to see them through your eyes.

And today, I think, is the most appropriate day for me to say these things. I've survived another year. I've experienced another year of sorrow, joy, pain, and hope, and I'm still standing.

I never feel so calm as after I pray. Last night, I prayed and asked God to keep Karen close to him. She died a Catholic. She died regretting her past sins. So, she died clean. And she's happier, in Heaven. Her life was so... she wasted so much of how she could have been because she didn't believe in herself. I don't want to do that. I don't want to die wishing that I'd lived.

See, I went all sappy.

Boybands... er... vocal and dance groups. Well, mostly. Okay, mostly not.

( Started as a response to a post but... kinda grew. )

I need a title generator or something.

I'd like to say that this is very wonderful. Yes.

And this and this are hilarious.

Blah, blah, blah...

Subtitle: Fuck, why do I bother with the subject line?

First, thank you so much for the flowers. They're beautiful.
( I like Lance. )

Howie and Nick-ay are so cute!

With the... And the...

I saw the finger wiggling thing that apparently only Howie used to do but now Nick does and I don't remember who pointed it out but SQUEE! So! Cute!

I think the last time that I did this was when I was all "Lance and Justin are sitting the same way! Justin is doing Lance's one-foot-on-the-ground thing! Gah!"

Of course, then I was all, 'Fucking Timberlake.' Because he's adorable and it sounds cute. 'Fucking Carter' doesn't have the same ring. I think that it's the lack of a hard 'k' in 'Carter'. 'Fucking Timberlake' has rhythm.

Also, I adore it whenever the singer turns and looks straight into the camera for an instant. This is part of the reason that I adore Stronger, because there's this second where you're staring straight into her eyes. Mmm. Kevin does it in this video. When they start out looking away and then, BAM!, straight at you.

Brian still scares me, but I find AJ oddly attractive. As in, attractive in an odd way.