There he goes.

My brother's leaving to go back to college today.

It was nice seeing him, but it'll also be nice not to have to stress so much about whether my nightgown is too short. 'Cause, ew.

Ficcy Thoughts

I want to do this. Not sure what exactly I plan to do.

Two Catfights, both involving Justin, Lance and Britney. Both excellent. Here and here.

I'm thinking of rec'ing Badbatz version to Esm, who's into the Lance/Britney thing.

Religion and stuff like that.

One of the points brought up in the Non-Religious and Proud of it thread is the inability of most religious people to keep their noses out of it.

Even those of us, who like me don't post or try covert anyone, still read it. Why?

Part of the Christian religion is about conversion. It's right there in the Bible: Matthew 28:18-20. In my version(Contemporary English Version), it reads:
And Jesus came, and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto Me in heaven and in earth. Go ye therefore and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost; Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.

Part of it is that bubbling urge to share this love, this wonderful thing that you've discovered that makes you feel alive. I want to share my Christianity for the same reason that I want people to know that I love Buffy and *NSYNC - they are all things that make me happy.

Now, I'm someone who doesn't try to convert people. Most people online probably aren't aware that I'm a Christian(Evangelical Lutheran) or, if they do, they don't know how firm and full my faith is. I've felt God in my life. I've had prayers answered.

No matter how dark it gets, I've never stopped believing. I've questioned but underneath, there was always this... unexplainable certainty.

I don't share this the way I share my Buffy love or *NSYNC love. Anyone who's talked to me on the MBTV boards can probably tell you that I love them. Most of them wouldn't know how I feel about God.

I know that they don't want to know. It hurts, sometimes, not sharing such a huge part of myself. But I don't want to push anyone anyway and talk of religion does that.

I wish that people could just talk about it. I'm fairly interested in other people's view of what religion is and what they do and don't know. But it seems like that if you say that you're a Christian, you get painted with this intolerant, pushy brush. Or paint, I guess. I think that my metaphor just confused me.

Anyway.

I wear a cross necklace fairly often. I plan to keep wearing it. It's simple but pretty. I'm fond of it. It's on an almost choker-length chain. This is the only external sign of my beliefs.

Because, in the end, no matter how important something is to me, I can't make it important to someone else.

My mom will never like *NSYNC.
My brother will never like Buffy.
And you can't make anyone to believe in something that they don't.

Just because these things make me happy, doesn't mean that they can make other people happy, no matter how much I wish that they could.