Uh-oh.

[butterfly]

aka "everyone's entitled to a hero, right?"

So, I was all set to do the fanfic author appreciation thing.

Except I can't think of anything to say. At least, nothing that's anywhere near as effusive as I managed for Speranza. Because I adore a great many authors, but Speranza's work? I pretty much worship.

I should have done her last.

Because she's... for me, yeah, she's up there with people like Terry Pratchett, writing-wise.

Like, you have the authors who have written one or two good fics. You have authors who write one or two good fandoms (and then they try to branch out, and you wince because they were so good at their original fandoms and now... just no). You have authors that always write great porn. Some write great gen and can create plots that thrill you. Some can make you believe that characters are actually talking. Authors that make you cry and laugh and love.

There are a good four or five dozen authors that I could rec as being undeniably great, approaching brilliant.

But, just as there are many wonderful authors in the world, but there is only one PTerry; there is only one Speranza. Speranza is who I secretly long to write like, in my heart of hearts (and not so secretly, at times). And, as I mentioned in my post, she hits my list of favorite authors ever.

Not favorite fic authors but favorite authors, period.

Yeeeeah. Really shoulda done her last.

In other news? I've been in the best mood the last couple of days. It's the side-effect of confession plus the giddy joy of really great news. The guests at BV haven't managed to annoy me at all so far this week. Normally, I'm irritated by the end of Monday. But, god, confession really is good for the soul. I just keep randomly smiling recently. For no reason, just because I'm happy.

I mean, I thought I was happy before, but I still had this low-level anxiety where I was questioning myself. And now that I have that measure of faith in myself back, I can do stuff like admit that I briefly wrote horrible Herc non-con at age sixteen, which I would have died before pointing out before.

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[dlgood.livejournal.com]

I mean, I thought I was happy before, but I still had this low-level anxiety where I was questioning myself. And now that I have that measure of faith in myself back, I can do stuff like admit that I briefly wrote horrible Herc non-con at age sixteen, which I would have died before pointing out before.

Being able to admitting to that is a clear sign of strength. Good for you.

[scrollgirl.livejournal.com]

I mean, I thought I was happy before, but I still had this low-level anxiety where I was questioning myself. And now that I have that measure of faith in myself back, I can do stuff like admit that I briefly wrote horrible Herc non-con at age sixteen, which I would have died before pointing out before.

So glad you have some of that faith back. *hugs* I may not know you very well, but the more I get to know you, the more I come to admire how brave and strong you are!

Ooh Herc non-con. I'll confess that I've written horribly trite original character het non-con before. I was sixteen too!

[millefiori.livejournal.com]

I loved reading your post about Cesperanza -- she's one of my all-time favorite writers, too. I think it's because her style just totally suits my wants/needs in fiction. Her stories usually have everything I love and nothing I don't, so reading/re-reading them is just a joy.

It's kind of weird the way LJ lets us "get to know" people in ways we usually don't on mailing lists. I used to happily email Ces about her stories when I first discovered them, but now that I know more about her from LJ I'm totally intimidated about talking to her. Stupid, I know, but there you have it.

I'm so glad that your recent 'confessions' have given you some peace. I really admire you for being so honest and up front about such personal, painful issues. (Maybe it's situations like this that gave rise to the saying, 'The truth shall set you free.')

[jic]

*hugs* Glad you're happy
=D

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Yay! Glad you're feeling better!