Personal: Holidays, Updates, Introductions

[butterfly]

Thanks for the card, trepkos. Yay for leaping fish and shiny gold letters. It's really pretty.

As may be somewhat apparent, I lack in 'holiday spirit' this year. I've actually been pretty quiet for a while. Not just post-wise, but in responding to comments, too. I'm going through a radio-silence phase of a sort, but I'm trying really hard not to completely drop off the radar, hence the sudden posting with angsty or fannish content. I'm actively concentrating on not running away, as I'm apt to do when I feel uncomfortable or scared or judged.

I'm working on making my low periods shallower and shorter, but it is work.

For anyone who hasn't known me for long, I'm rather prone to periods of depression. If you've seen the sixth season of Buffy, that's what they're like, only with much less Spike-related sex and abandoning people at the altar.

If you haven't seen the sixth season of Buffy, then it's... kinda like Ennis when he's not with Jack. If you haven't seen Brokeback Mountain, then I'm not entirely sure that I can help you. Think of something depressing. It's like that.

Other Basics:
I write slash, het, and gen. In the past, I've also written twincest and RPF (though not at the same time as of yet). I have only a few squicks and many kinks. I'm generally Democratic and generally liberal and I live in Oregon (USA). I have female parts and consider myself bisexual.

Further aids in Getting to Know Me Better include:
As a Writer -- my thoughts on feedback and criticism
100 things meme (dated 3/15/03) -- includes some extremely personal information that I chose to make public
POV in viewing and writing characters (examples from Stargate SG-1)
Five Fannish Opinions -- which manages to cover a lot of ground in how I view things
Self-Injury -- Written on SI Awareness Day this last year
10 Things About Me -- random facts about me
Buffyverse Essay List -- of all the things that I really do plan to put on my site. One day. No, really. I do.
A Fireman, When the Floods Roll Back -- my view on Buffy, female power, and the point of S7 BtVS
My pov on what love should do (examples from SG1 and BtVS)
A rundown of just when I fell in love with pretty much every major BtVS/AtS character, from Angel to Xander

Comments

[bhadrasvapna.livejournal.com]

I get SAD too. It was so bad this year that not only did they have to put my on Anti-depressants, but they had to up the dosage. I'm on Wellbutrin now and it has made a tremendous difference.

That doesn't mean I am remotely in the Christmas spirit. I am waiting for certain news.

If you want a good depiction of depression, I wrote this last year.

Lots of hugs and good wishes to you in this suckiest of sucky times.

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Now that Christmas is over, I do feel a bit better.

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Pleasure m'dear!

"I have female parts"!

*snicker*
I'm imagining you keeping them in jars in your Igor-esque laboratory!

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

I'm imagining you keeping them in jars in your Igor-esque laboratory!

Hee! I totally should.

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Did I send you some CDs?
If not, may I?

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

If you'd like to send some, I'd like it very much, thank you.

[thepouncer.livejournal.com]

I hope you can wade out of the shallows soon. And I'm glad to see you posting, even infrequently. *hugs*

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thanks. And Christmas passing has helped.

HI

[bazcatz.livejournal.com]

Hi I’m lea, and I came across your entry on my friends page (I friended you so I could keep up with "White Rabbits" -Good story -)

I just wanted to say that I hope that you feel better soon. I have BPD and have been cutting for 6 years. So I know how horrible it can be when your mood drops.

BTW I also LOVE Buffy and Angel, am bisexual, love slash and have a writers dream (although a dream it may stay, as I have major esteem issues)its nice to come across someone who has things in common with me, makes me feel less alone.

Anyways I hope that you feel better soon *hugs*

Lea

Re: HI

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thank you -- I'm really glad that you're liking the story.

And yes, it does always feel better to know that there are other people out there who feel the same.

[therisingmoon.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

Thank you.

[coneyislandbaby]

*hugs*

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Thank you, sweetie.