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An almost sequel(companion?) to Simplicity, Itself.

Not Simple Enough

He watches me whenever he thinks that no one's looking. I've learned to peek out of the corner of my eyes, to catch a glimpse without him noticing. He used to watch me that way all the time, before I knew what it meant. Now that I know, he hides it. Not too well, but enough to fool anyone who doesn't know him.

Joey's had The Talk with me, though. "If Lance ever says anything, don't you dare ever hurt his feelings." It was all I could do to keep from rolling my eyes. Lance would never say anything and for the same reason that I'll never tell anyone that I like the way he looks at me. It just wouldn't be a good career move. Wouldn't be smart.

Besides I have Britney. And Britney's perfect. Well, the guys don't seem to agree with that all of the time, but Lance likes her. He says he likes her. What if he's lying to make it seem like he's not interested in me?

Fuck, I hate it when we have nothing to do. I always start to doubt myself and my choice. Britney is perfect and that's the end of it.

And yeah, she's not the one that I dream about, but that'll change eventually. I just need to spend more time with Lance. Like a vaccine. Or something. Fuck. I shouldn't spend more time with Lance. That won't help. See? Self-doubt, table for one.

It would be easier if Lance had stayed awkward and shy. That Lance had been cute, but in no way sexy. But no, he had to grow up into a fucking beautiful guy.

Who gave him the right to do that anyway?

Asshole.

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Date: 2002-02-19 08:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beckynicky.livejournal.com
You know, I have had the same thoughts. Well, not of Lance staring at me and all but who gave him the right to get all sexy and shit?

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Date: 2002-02-19 08:32 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] butterfly.livejournal.com
Sadly, I think that God gave him that right. Very unfair.

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Date: 2002-02-19 08:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beckynicky.livejournal.com
Chris pulled the same stunt. Bastards, all of them!

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Date: 2002-02-19 08:46 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] butterfly.livejournal.com
Very much so. Evil, manipulating bastards. Gotta love'em.

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Date: 2002-02-19 08:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sour-grapes.livejournal.com
ooh, see! It's lovely! Angsty!Justin, hating Lance for being him, and not hating himself for being so painfully oblivious! You want him, not Britney!

Wow, not making much sense. But I like!

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Date: 2002-02-19 08:53 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] butterfly.livejournal.com
Thanks. Yeah, an Angsty!Justin is a repressed, angry Justin. Fun.

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Date: 2002-02-19 09:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] psychoticspy.livejournal.com
You jump on small animals in your spare time, don't you?
Very heart-wrenching.
Brilliant, as usual.

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Date: 2002-02-19 09:47 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] butterfly.livejournal.com
Hee. No, I adore small animals.

Not that way.

Seriously though, thank you.

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Date: 2002-02-19 10:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ibizaprtygrl.livejournal.com
Ugh, I don't know what to say except.....I loved it. Really.

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Date: 2002-02-19 11:07 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] butterfly.livejournal.com
Thank you. Very much.

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Date: 2002-02-21 03:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] caorann.livejournal.com
So, um, there's going to be a sequel, right? Maybe from Brit's POV? Or something? Because I'm loving the angst.

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Date: 2002-02-21 03:18 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] butterfly.livejournal.com
Thanks. And there probably will be. I like sad!hopeless!JuLa. And I have problems.

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Date: 2002-02-21 08:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] caorann.livejournal.com
Cool! I love angst!

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