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[butterfly]

Self-esteem is an odd, odd thing.

Every time that someone compliments me, I have to fight the urge to tell them that I don't deserve it.

You'd think that after a while, I'd get that people like my writing, think that I'm cute, or whatever else it is.

But every time is like the first.

And every time, I have to fight myself to say 'Thank you', instead of 'God, no. It wasn't any good.'

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oh honey

[powrhug.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel! I really do. I'm my worst critic. And I usually end up hating everything I write. So it's always sort of a shocking little thrill when someone says good things about my work. I'm almost at a point where I can just say "thank you" but it's tough.

Hugs to you!

Re: oh honey

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

And yeah, I say 'Thank you', but most of the time, my brain translates 'That's so good' into 'I should be nice to her because she really sucks as a writer'.

Re: oh honey

[powrhug.livejournal.com]

Oh now see? Mine always translates into, "She's my dear friend, so I have to say nice things about her writing so she'll feel good at about it." LOL So I guess my self-esteem problem is really funnelled directly into the writing issue. That's why it always tickles me so much when I get positive feedback from someone I don't know. "Oh! Yeah! They don't know me and they like my fic anyway!"

yeah, I know i have problems! LOL

Re: oh honey

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Well, I for one never compliment unless I mean it. So, if I say that I like something, I really do.

[greeneyes.livejournal.com]

WOW do I ever know what you mean..but on a diff note..I have a hard time with compliments myself. specially when guys tell me I am pretty or even sexy..I usually think they are just saying that for something to say..cux I deff don't see myself that way..so think how do you see that..most days I look in the mirror an think..yuck!! lol but..serious I do..its hard I guess for ppl to take a compliment maybe cux we all are out worse critics..

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Exactly. We don't see ourselves as valuable.