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Oct. 16th, 2004 07:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
butterflySo, I'm working on things now. Essays and such. But then I was just thinking and I was blindsided by how much I adore Angel in Not Fade Away. He's a hero, but in the classic sense rather than the modern -- he's Herakles, family-killer, infamous, dangerous, beloved and hated by the gods. He's Samson, bringing his enemies down with himself. Fucked-up beyond belief. Certain of his own place in hell. I have never loved Angel as much as I do in that last episode.
To twist it around, Chosen was one of the times when my complete love of Buffy overwhelms me. It's interesting how my love for the two characters manifests in opposing fashions -- I want Buffy to be happy, but I want Angel to be certain. Balls to the wall, no way out, but he'll bite and slash and claw his enemies down with him.
And I don't want that for Buffy.
Anyway, it all got me thinking about love, about moments where my love for a character shines its brightest and what that might mean as to the kind of love that I hold for them. What does it mean that I love Angel most in the struggle and that I love Buffy the most in the times after?
That I love Daniel the most when he's sacrificing himself? I've seen most of Stargate SG-1 now, and Meridian remains, hands-down, my favorite episode. It's the moment just before he starts shooting, when it clicks for him and he makes a choice. Every single time I watch that moment, it hits me the same way. In that moment, I adore Daniel Jackson so much that I feel as if I can't breathe.
Definitive moments, perhaps. A moment in time when the reason that I fell for that character in the first place eclipses everything else.
To twist it around, Chosen was one of the times when my complete love of Buffy overwhelms me. It's interesting how my love for the two characters manifests in opposing fashions -- I want Buffy to be happy, but I want Angel to be certain. Balls to the wall, no way out, but he'll bite and slash and claw his enemies down with him.
And I don't want that for Buffy.
Anyway, it all got me thinking about love, about moments where my love for a character shines its brightest and what that might mean as to the kind of love that I hold for them. What does it mean that I love Angel most in the struggle and that I love Buffy the most in the times after?
That I love Daniel the most when he's sacrificing himself? I've seen most of Stargate SG-1 now, and Meridian remains, hands-down, my favorite episode. It's the moment just before he starts shooting, when it clicks for him and he makes a choice. Every single time I watch that moment, it hits me the same way. In that moment, I adore Daniel Jackson so much that I feel as if I can't breathe.
Definitive moments, perhaps. A moment in time when the reason that I fell for that character in the first place eclipses everything else.
