random fandom thoughts

One of the things that I love about the Scooby circle-conversation in Chosen is that it does feel a touch staged -- this is how they want to remember each other, should they die. They want to remember the joking and caring and being with each other as who they are. A place where past pains are acknowledged but never the thing that matters -- what matters is that they're together and they're making plans for tomorrow. It's a deliberate show of faith and hope on the parts of the individuals involved -- "We'll live through this and go shopping. We'll live through this and make inappropriate jokes and exasperate Giles and be young and carefree. And if we don't, we will always remember having this. This is who we chose to be, together."

So, Buffy is my hopeful ending. I always wanted it to end with hope, with a future, with my girl happy. All throughout the series, all I really wanted for Buffy was for her to be happy.

It's an interesting contrast with Angel. I always thought it would be nice if Angel got to be happy, but... he's not much of a happy guy, to be honest. The endings to both shows feel so utterly appropriate for what the shows were. If Buffy's ending made me look toward the future, Angel's made me look toward the current moment. Finally, I can name what I've gotten from Angel -- the fight. That's what Angel's about, in the end. It's about the good fight, about fighting even with your last breath, about finding a reason to fight, even when the battle is impossible. Because sometimes winning isn't as important as fighting. And, as in Buffy, the fight isn't about guns or swords, but about pain and fear and the monster on the inside.

Lord of the Rings is bittersweet, yet ultimately satisfying. Like really good dark chocolate (not the second-rate American stuff). Every win comes at a great cost, and the battle is won not by armies but by mercy and love.

due South is my happy, romantic ending. I smile just thinking about it. It makes me happy in this supremely uncomplicated way, despite being a show that contains both great complications and great darkness, though neither are touched on as often as they might have been in another show. To continue the food analogy, due South is a long, cold drink of the purest water in the world on the hottest day in summer.

I don't know what Stargate is yet. I know that it doesn't slid into any of the categories mentioned above. I think... I think that it might be the friendship thing. Never have I read a fandom where I've been so willing to read gen fic and not feel like I'm settling. I can read a fic with Jack and Daniel sharing 'only' a strong friendship without feeling like something's missing, like they should be having sex. In all my other set of 'friends to lovers' fic reads, I want to see the transition. I feel a bit ripped off if they don't shift out of friendship and start taking off clothes. With Jack and Daniel, they can snark and tease and keep all their clothes on and I'm still happy. Watching their relationship on the show makes me incredibly happy. I can go either way with them, friends or lovers. With, for example, Fraser and RayK, I always feel like they need to be physically together, because they have... when I see them onscreen together, I ache for them to be a little closer, touch longer, and blur the line further. That's the way I am with most of my pairings -- I feel like they need to be closer, because they would be happier if they would only touch and kiss and be together. Jack and Daniel are so incredibly... together, whether or not they're a couple. They've been through death and life and everything that the universe can possible throw at them. They speak in unison and share ideas (starting from the movie). They argue and make up. They have fundamental differences regarding the way they view the world and they work it out, bridge by bridge.

It's absolutely gorgeous to watch, but I don't have a name for it yet.
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