There is nothing quite so wonderful as getting an unlooked for compliment.

Just got a truly sweet email about my Buffy/Xander fic (focusing on one of my earlier ones). It was really nice. And it definitely inspires the urge to write.

I mean, I do have all these ideas, but I need to work them into a cohesive whole - I need a shard of reality to hang onto (my fiction is all based on other fiction, on unreality - I don't write a passion of mine apart from that because I haven't found it yet - I have ideas, but as yet they are unformed, nameless and shaded).

In other news, I'm most of the way through the People's Guide to J.R.R. Tolkien and I find myself longing to dig up my copies of tLotR and giving another go at reading them through (last time, I stalled in the middle of the first bit of the Two Towers - I wanted to hear more about my favorite character Frodo and got annoyed and bored when he refused to show). Because there is magic in Middle-Earth. I can feel it in the book, but it's distant, buried in a language that I hadn't yet found the key to. I don't know whether I have now, but I won't know until I try the book again.

I have an idea about the style of a particular series that I'm working on. I'd thought that it would be related to the after-death air of a different series that I'm working on, but I find myself drawn to the style that I attempted in Childish Things (Smallville, post-Asylum, Clark/Lex-ish) - which is itself an off-shoot from an idea that I did tried in Experience (the Fairy Tale Lies Remix) (Popslash challenge fic, remixing another story - in this case, torch's Experience - Nick/Justin). The style is a two-story thing, where there is the reality against a fiction - in FTL, that fiction is a 'fairy tale', in CT, it's a dream. Still, it's similar enough to make me see that it's something I want to do more of. I like the format, thought against reality, want versus need. It's about choice, about the idea that there's always more than one version.

That may, in fact, be my shard - that there is no one truth, which leads into philosophy and creativity, both things very dear to me. All things contain within them both beauty and horror.

And life is often amusing. It's sweet and scary and silly and just plain strange. People interacting in mysterious and interesting ways.

Website update:

Added Childish Things to the Smallville section.

This is the first story on the site to have my new way of doing things. That's how I plan to put up all new stories, and I'll be going through and changing the old ones (if I ever have time, she whined, looking at the clock).