Godless heathens...

( More on this week's Buffy and Angel )

Alexander - Protector of Mankind

Two fandoms that I'm in have Alexanders - Smallville and Buffy. Neither of the Alexanders go by their full name.

I looked up Xander here and got some interesting results:

As Xander, you have a natural interest in the welfare of your fellow man, and a desire to help and serve others in a humanitarian way. You are responsible and generous, although somewhat scattering and disorganized at times. Any jobs requiring systematic and conscientious effort, or involving any form of drudgery, dismay you. In your work, you would seek a position offering self-expression through contact with people, such as sales or teaching, or a position giving scope to your creative, artistic talents. You are good-natured and likeable, and people tend to confide in you and seek your advice in personal problems. Others sense your sincere interest and desire to help, and you can always be counted on to see the bright side of any problem. You enjoy making others happy and you never let your own problems "get you down" for any length of time, even though you do tend to worry too much at times. Your optimism can be a source of inspiration to others as well as yourself. In close personal relationships you are usually thoughtful and considerate. However, your natural interest in others, coupled with your sympathetic reaction to problems, could draw you into emotional situations which may be difficult to get out of. Health weakness would appear as skin conditions or ailments relative to the liver. A tendency to overeat quick-energy foods aggravates any health problems.

That is so... Xander.

From the same source, here's what it has on Lex:

The name Lex gives you a strongly independent and highly creative nature, with drive and ambition to have experiences and accomplish things out of the ordinary. You can work intently at whatever is new and holds your interest at the moment, but your interest wanes quickly when drudgery and monotony set in. Obstacles to your progress or restrictions on your freedom to act create a sense of frustration which may cause you to feel resentful and even rebellious. You can then become intolerant of others, and caustic and belittling in your expression, thereby imposing stress on your personal relationships. Although you have a clever, quick, capable mind, your progress in life is restricted by instability in your affairs and misunderstandings with people. Your impulsive nature can lead to actions which you later regret taking, or to accidents. Relaxation is elusive, and depletion due to nervous tension can develop to the point where you become subject to moods of depression and morbid thoughts. Nervous tension centres in the solar plexus, with nervous indigestion and stomach ulcers a possible result.

Interesting how the choice of a diminutive changes so much. Neither of them fits the profile of 'Alexander', but both of them very much fit the profile of their chosen names.

And both of them are 'protectors of mankind'. Or believe that they are. In the future, Lex will hate the 'alien'. I'm sure that he thinks of himself as protecting mankind... humankind. No aliens in the club. And Xander chose to become one of those who protects mankind, again, specifically, humankind, against vampires and other forces of darkness. But neither of them carry the full name... because neither of them will see past human and into person? Xander is closer than Lex will end up being and he has more of the name.

What in the world...

Okay, there is a streak of blood going up the outside length of my thumb and I have no clue where it came from. I don't have a cut or anything. So very bizarre.

Icon-talk:

I've actually made a new icon, but since it's incredibly spoilery for Dirty Girls, I'll wait until next Tuesday to start using it. As a hint to its content, it'll be replacing my Connor icon. If you want to see it now...
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I've decided to do the drabbles that I've missed. I won't be posting them in the communities, obviously, but I can write them and put them on my site. I refuse to allow the fact that I totally forgot about them this week to stop me from writing them.

So, right, I'm going to go work on that now.

Why do we do the things we do?

I have no clue. I found one of my old knives a while ago. One of the ones that I would use to cut with. I hadn't used it after I'd found it, but I hadn't exactly thrown it out, either. And while I could make the case that an exacto knife is a good and useful thing, which it can be, the truth is that I've never used that knife for cutting anything but myself.

Tonight, I used it. Maybe I was curious to see if cutting still felt the same. Shock of shocks, it does. Hurts like hell, with that up feeling afterwards. Like it always did.

I knew that it wouldn't be any different. So why did I feel the need to test it?

On a different note, I've been crying a lot more easily these days. Vids, fanfic, transcripts of Farscape. Things that didn't make me cry before are making me cry now. I have no clue why. This is why it would have been nice to continue therapy. Not having insurance can be sucky.

If you only recently joined my journal and thought it was all fandom joy, now you know that there's this, too.