Heh.

Occasionally, I have moments of sheer pettiness. Like when I've just been defriended, I usually go, "Well, I didn't really read them either. So. They're defriended, too. So there."

Which is amusing, after. That 'I didn't really care in the first place, only I probably wouldn't throw a minor hissy fit if that was true' thing.

*pouts*

I may explode if I don't find a way to see the rest of due South. It's just... evil. Amazon doesn't have it! I thought they had everything. But no.

*pouts*

Projection

So, I was thinking about how some people have expressed... disappointment in the sheer blatentness of Christina's video.

And I realized, that while I don't have that feeling toward Chrissy, I do have feelings like that toward Britney.

Not the same way, of course. It's not about exposure, it's about her seeming lack of power.

I was thinking and my thoughts led me to when I started feeling disappointed in Brit.

And it was after Stronger. Stronger is the only Britney video that I really, really love. And the disappointment stems from when I realized that Britney is nothing like Stronger!Britney.

And I think that some people miss Reflection!Christina, or Genie!Christina or Girl!Christina. But Chrissy says that this is her.

And I believe her. Moulin Rouge. The Pussycat club thing. Everything about her from when she says she was allowed to start actually expressing herself says that this is who she is.

(no subject)

You know, it occurs to me that a song about a ship sinking shouldn't be so... well, sexy.

But then again, if that were the case, they should not have let Paul Gross sing it.

Shakespeare Sonnet LXXXIII

I never saw that you did painting need
And therefore to your fair no painting set;
I found, or thought I found, you did exceed
The barren tender of a poet's debt;
And therefore have I slept in your report,
That you yourself being extant well might show
How far a modern quill doth come too short,
Speaking of worth, what worth in you doth grow.
This silence for my sin you did impute,
Which shall be most my glory, being dumb;
For I impair not beauty being mute,
When others would give life and bring a tomb.
There lives more life in one of your fair eyes
Than both your poets can in praise devise.

Fanon thoughts.

So, liviapenn was saying smart things about fanon.

Which, naturally, led me to consider my own uses of fanon.

Xander's family was fanon way before it was canon. It was pretty much accepted that his family bit the big one. But other Buffy fanon ideas have, over the course of the show, been Jossed into oblivion. Spike being evil before he was turned was a huge fanon belief before Fool for Love aired.

To move into the specific subject that livia mentioned, there's tons of fanon that's contradicted by the show that people still use. Childe and Childer being a favorite of mine. Well, a favorite to make fun of. Even the Master didn't use those terms. Spike and Angel probably wouldn't ever, expecially when you consider the mocking of Anne Rice that they had going on in School Hard. Also, we know that vamps don't cry blood. We've seen weepy vamps. No blood tears here, mate.

The biggest mischaracterization in slash is the bitchifying of Buffy. You want Xander to move to L.A. to live with Spike, Angel, and Doyle, that's all fine and good, but you lose me completely when you imply that Buffy isn't affected at all by Xander leaving until he mention aforementioned foursome. Whether or not you share my deep conviction of Buffy's affection for Xander, the show does, in fact, show that she cares about him and would miss him if he left (The Freshman, Normal Again).

Making Buffy a bitch just makes the author look bad. And it's interesting that many slash fics with Xander do that, because in most fandoms, you only bitchify the canon girlfriend. So, it's to me, you're saying that Buffy is so important to Xander that he couldn't leave unless she became the bitchiest woman who ever lived.

And while we're talking about Buffy, let's talk about Willow-Sue, a character with no foundation in show canon. Willow is smart. Willow is even cool sometimes. Willow is not the Uberhero of All Time, able to fight harder than Buffy, be the most understanding person in the world and steal boyfriends in a single bound.

Random Lesson thought:

We're past spoiler-time, yes? I mean, Saturday is when people are done getting it, I think.

Anyway, if not, then look away.

I am probably the only person who heard Xander say "I'm going to be on-site here all day, so if you have any needs..." and thought "Oooo, lunchtime quickie."

*baffled*

Just a moment of confusion.

See, I always think of myself as more likeable online than in person. I'm sure that this stems from my many insecurites.

Anyway, I think that, but then people who seem to like me in real life also show absolutely no interest in friending my online. Which leads to confusion for me.

So, really, I have three possibilities.

A) They're only pretending to like me in person.

B) They like me in person, but not online.

C) They aren't actually aware that I'm, you know, me. As in the person being the online person, type of thing.

Since I'm guessing that they aren't that oblivious, especially when you consider that I gave these people my lj-name, I'll rule out C. This leaves A and B.

Guess which one low-self-esteem girl chooses?

*eyeroll*

This is not meant to be a self-pity post. I'm just... just confused that only two of the people that I've met in person seem to like me online.

Premiere

Dude. I was just rewatching the season five premiere.

Xander: "And blood... blood is life."

Foreshadow me the season finale, baby.

Also:

Buffy: "You always come back."

And so do you, sweetie.