We have beliefs in common *g* I always say that I don't fear death though I fear dying. I'm afraid of dying in pain or in fear or both. I don't fear death because I believe in something after and if I'm right, there's nothing to fear, if I'm wrong though, there will be nothing and I'll just cease to exist one and for all, and then back to square one, because there's nothing to fear either, I won't be there *g*
I never thought of killing myself though - I thought about suicide in general and what impact my death would have on people, in particular if I was the one responsible for it, but I never thought of killing myself. Besides, I was lucky enough to grow up in such an environment that I never doubted that I was loved or that people would miss me, family or friends - there was no reason for me to think of doing something like that. Sadly it's not the same thing for everyone and I saw what suicides meant to those who stayed behind and the sheer devastation it created in the midst of the family that remained and it really shocked me... I couldn't imagine doing that, being the one responsible for that kind of pain. I just hope I never will.
And I'm glad that, even though you may not have solved everything, you're now able to see that life is worth living - there's beauty everywhere. Being able to see that is a gift *g*
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regna
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Date: 2005-02-12 10:46 pm (UTC)I never thought of killing myself though - I thought about suicide in general and what impact my death would have on people, in particular if I was the one responsible for it, but I never thought of killing myself. Besides, I was lucky enough to grow up in such an environment that I never doubted that I was loved or that people would miss me, family or friends - there was no reason for me to think of doing something like that. Sadly it's not the same thing for everyone and I saw what suicides meant to those who stayed behind and the sheer devastation it created in the midst of the family that remained and it really shocked me... I couldn't imagine doing that, being the one responsible for that kind of pain. I just hope I never will.
And I'm glad that, even though you may not have solved everything, you're now able to see that life is worth living - there's beauty everywhere. Being able to see that is a gift *g*
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