Waters of Mars: on the Doctor
Nov. 16th, 2009 03:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
butterflySee, the thing is, this was always coming.
There's a reason that the vid Handlebars made me sit up in Vividcon and go, "Yeah... that's my Doctor." This was always coming.
The Doctor has always been a loose canon. Before the new series, he was a loose canon that had external limitations placed on him (from his people). RTD took those brakes off and, so, the only thing holding the Doctor back was his companion.
We've seen him rage at the limitations of the universe - that the Daleks should live while his people died ("Dalek"), that he should lose Rose and Donna and Astrid and so many more. But he always cared too much about the universe and the consequences for it to actually go... "fuck, I don't care anymore," but I think a lot of people saw the moment coming when he didn't care enough. I've seen a lot of fic writers and vidders go to that moment (I've done it myself - at the end of "Universal Realignment", when the Doctor decides that the rest of the universe can fuck off and die in a paradox if he has the people that he loves most (has Rose) with him and safe).
That delicious and dangerous edge of darkness, where the only thing that really was separating the Doctor from the Master was that the Doctor cared about other people and the consequences to them; that he cared about those last few laws.
One of the other first steps in this choice (this... snapping open) was Rose and Jack - Rose created a fixed point in Jack; created something that shouldn't exist. But because it was Rose, the Doctor couldn't punish her or even get mad at her. Rose was the fragile center that he rebuilt his world around; he couldn't reject her, no matter what choices she made and how dangerous they might be. Rose needed to be safe and loved and happy.
Donna needed to be safe.
Imagine the world as remade by the Doctor - every moment in flux not because time works that way, but because one person has the power to change anything - anything - that he likes. For any reason. It wouldn't be such a bad universe... unless, like Harriet Jones, you aren't prepared to fully trust him to protect you (he's not always there, after all) and you take steps to protect yourself. Because then you'll be one of the cast-off ones, one of the enemies, and nothing in the universe can protect you from this, from 'the most remarkable man'.
This is a man who could make armies turn and run the other way just by showing up (and that's a bad thing). The Doctor has so much potential power.
Lindsay, because of her last moments, she did play the part of a companion - she saved the Doctor from becoming a monster (from becoming the Master).
Yeah. That's my Doctor. Still holding onto the shreds of himself.
It's going to be one hell of a Christmas.
There's a reason that the vid Handlebars made me sit up in Vividcon and go, "Yeah... that's my Doctor." This was always coming.
The Doctor has always been a loose canon. Before the new series, he was a loose canon that had external limitations placed on him (from his people). RTD took those brakes off and, so, the only thing holding the Doctor back was his companion.
We've seen him rage at the limitations of the universe - that the Daleks should live while his people died ("Dalek"), that he should lose Rose and Donna and Astrid and so many more. But he always cared too much about the universe and the consequences for it to actually go... "fuck, I don't care anymore," but I think a lot of people saw the moment coming when he didn't care enough. I've seen a lot of fic writers and vidders go to that moment (I've done it myself - at the end of "Universal Realignment", when the Doctor decides that the rest of the universe can fuck off and die in a paradox if he has the people that he loves most (has Rose) with him and safe).
That delicious and dangerous edge of darkness, where the only thing that really was separating the Doctor from the Master was that the Doctor cared about other people and the consequences to them; that he cared about those last few laws.
One of the other first steps in this choice (this... snapping open) was Rose and Jack - Rose created a fixed point in Jack; created something that shouldn't exist. But because it was Rose, the Doctor couldn't punish her or even get mad at her. Rose was the fragile center that he rebuilt his world around; he couldn't reject her, no matter what choices she made and how dangerous they might be. Rose needed to be safe and loved and happy.
Donna needed to be safe.
Imagine the world as remade by the Doctor - every moment in flux not because time works that way, but because one person has the power to change anything - anything - that he likes. For any reason. It wouldn't be such a bad universe... unless, like Harriet Jones, you aren't prepared to fully trust him to protect you (he's not always there, after all) and you take steps to protect yourself. Because then you'll be one of the cast-off ones, one of the enemies, and nothing in the universe can protect you from this, from 'the most remarkable man'.
This is a man who could make armies turn and run the other way just by showing up (and that's a bad thing). The Doctor has so much potential power.
Lindsay, because of her last moments, she did play the part of a companion - she saved the Doctor from becoming a monster (from becoming the Master).
Yeah. That's my Doctor. Still holding onto the shreds of himself.
It's going to be one hell of a Christmas.