*low whistle* I like this Britney.
Oct. 8th, 2001 08:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
butterflyStronger by Dazimae. It's from Britney's perspective, with some very important Justin/Lance stuff. And I hope that it's not done. Because it's really good.
This bit in particular leaps out:
"There IS no me, right now." I sigh. Like she understands that. She doesn't define herself by these standards. She doesn't NEED Chris to validate her worth, or make her feel adequate. I've ALWAYS, fucking ALWAYS looked up to Justin. Everything has always come so EASILY to him, and I wanted to grasp that, to somehow rein in some of that power and charisma and make it my own. For him to approve of me meant EVERYTHING, and now I don't even know him. I can't even remember when it was he told me that he was with Lance. I can't remember his face, or his eyes, or his voice. I just remember the shattering of my heart because he'd NEVER be mine, none of him would ever be a part of me. He'd never understand.
And I adore this:
the fact that we could both act our way out of an execution.
This bit in particular leaps out:
"There IS no me, right now." I sigh. Like she understands that. She doesn't define herself by these standards. She doesn't NEED Chris to validate her worth, or make her feel adequate. I've ALWAYS, fucking ALWAYS looked up to Justin. Everything has always come so EASILY to him, and I wanted to grasp that, to somehow rein in some of that power and charisma and make it my own. For him to approve of me meant EVERYTHING, and now I don't even know him. I can't even remember when it was he told me that he was with Lance. I can't remember his face, or his eyes, or his voice. I just remember the shattering of my heart because he'd NEVER be mine, none of him would ever be a part of me. He'd never understand.
And I adore this:
the fact that we could both act our way out of an execution.
