She noticed.

[butterfly]

My mom noticed the cuts.


The conversation that we had was... disturbing. One thing that sticks out is that when I showed them to her, she said that they didn't look 'that bad'.

I think that she was trying to be reassuring. It didn't work out that way.

After we talked, I made some more cuts.

I now have "I Hurt" carved into my stomach, facing outward. I also have the outline of my hand right above it.

Comments

*vibes*

[rainbow.livejournal.com]

and lots of *hugs* too if they're safe for you.

Re: *vibes*

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Hugs are good even when they hurt.

Re: *vibes*

[rainbow.livejournal.com]

then here are some more *HUGS*

have you been to bodies under siege (http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/busfaq.html)? it can be a great resource.

Re: *vibes*

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

No, I haven't. Thanks.

[rorylie.livejournal.com]

I'm so so sorry. And I have nothing else useful to say. My mother only ever notices when I pick scabs. And then says "Don't pick scabs. They'll scar." Not, "How did you you get a cut on your arm, Rory?" because that's apparently not important information.

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

You cut, too? Sometimes it seems like everyone does these days.

Something has to be seriously wrong with our society if it causes this many intelligent, sensitive people to hurt themselves so blatently.

[fox1013.livejournal.com]

Fuck.

I'm so sorry, baby. This shouldn't have to happen to you.

Look, we love you and support you. I understand your doing this, I really do. But if there's any way I can help you not do it anymore, let me know, okay?

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know.

I just want to scream sometimes and you never can, you know. So you scream into your skin.