Oh God. The Doctor starts remembering himself, and the first actual occurrence he recalls is Doomsday and Torchwood? Makes sense since it's *such* a huge source of pain this series, but still. That's heartbreaking - that beyond the basic mechanics of "the Doctor" (the TARDIS and the screwdriver), *that's* the first thing. That's what's been pressing against him. It really is his driving force this series, isn't it?
It really does make sense. And it explains why there are pages ripped out, which was something that I was wondering even on the first run-through. He's able to talk about it all fairly easily, but the way he writes in that thing... the repetition, the way he writes over everything -- it's all incredibly erratic and stressful-looking. If this is a look into the Doctor's subconscious, there's quite a lot of darkness in there (I'm thinking of going through, bit by bit, and working out as much of the text as I can, because I saw something about shadows and darkness).
John Smith isn't as far from the Doctor as he'd like to be -- his attraction to Joan, his precision with the cricket ball, his casual disregard of people who aren't being interesting... these are all things that stem from the parts of him that are still the Doctor.
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Date: 2007-05-30 02:27 am (UTC)It really does make sense. And it explains why there are pages ripped out, which was something that I was wondering even on the first run-through. He's able to talk about it all fairly easily, but the way he writes in that thing... the repetition, the way he writes over everything -- it's all incredibly erratic and stressful-looking. If this is a look into the Doctor's subconscious, there's quite a lot of darkness in there (I'm thinking of going through, bit by bit, and working out as much of the text as I can, because I saw something about shadows and darkness).
John Smith isn't as far from the Doctor as he'd like to be -- his attraction to Joan, his precision with the cricket ball, his casual disregard of people who aren't being interesting... these are all things that stem from the parts of him that are still the Doctor.