I'm fine.

[butterfly]

I talked to my dad on phone. Told him that it's hard to see him. He said that he wanted to try to make it better.

I cried.

I would randomly just do a whole body shake for about fifteen minutes after that.

God. That was.

Yeah.

Hard.

It hurts.

I want to cut.

I want to not cut.

I'm just terrified. I mean, what if. And.

God, I can't even think right now.

Everything's all swirly and wrong.

I want.

I want to know what to do.

It's all so complicated. Life.

Which is such an obvious and dumb thing to say.

Only I can't think of anything else.

Comments

[mandyc.livejournal.com]

I know it's not enough, but {{{{{hugs}}}}}

[fox1013.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm on AIM if you want to talk, okay?

[zebra71786.livejournal.com]

I don't really know what exactly is going on in your life, and I don't know how much it will help, but

[beckynicky.livejournal.com]

Life is complicated and it sucks but you will be fine. Just let everything call down a bit. Cutting won't helping. Panicking won't help. Just breath slowly and let yourself get back in control.

this is what I have to remind myself very often, it's an important thing to remember when doing bad things to yourself becomes an option

[eternaltimtams.livejournal.com]

What everybody else said. Big hugs to you.

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I actually shut down my computer after I posted this. And then I went to bed. I didn't cut, so, that's nice, right?

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

*hugs back*

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It does help. A lot. 'A lot'.

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thanks. That's pretty much what I've been learning in therapy, but it's tough to do.

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon.

*big hugs*

[coneyislandbaby]

Just...I'm glad you didn't cut.

[therisingmoon.livejournal.com]

Here's a [hug] to make you feel better, girl.

[BIG HUG]

Re: *big hugs*

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Thanks.

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[butterfly.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

Thank you.