Fandom

So, I've been slowly pulling out of the Buffy fandom. Even now that people at TWoP are less bitter(mostly), I still feel less of an urge to go there are discuss.

That may have to do with how much I've identified with my girl this year. When people say that the show is sucking or that it's just not believable. Oh, wow, ouch. Like being staked. Because these are people that I really like and it hurts to think that they think that something that I resonate so closely with is a big ol' suckfest. I need to pull away from the fandom a bit because the show's becoming too personal for me to share as much.

Smallville is fun and new and slashy. And I don't fully identify with any of the characters. Much safer to talk about. There's no risk that I'll take insults to Smallville personally. Because it does have it's lame moments and for me, Smallville is just a show. Which is such a relief to have after I watch Buffy, which is always a huge emotional release for me.

Popslash is somewhere in between. It can be very personal, with an element of wish-fulfillment. It can be impersonal. I can use it to explore myself and other personas or just to get off. Popslash is a very flexible fandom.

Ooo! Justin's my boyfriend!

Hee. I am so easy.

Both amusing and disturbing.

( I laughed. And then I cried when I saw they were serious. )

Hee.

I love Kevin Smith. Kevin on Britney.

Mostly variations on a theme

See? Theme.
( Buffy icons, non-pairing related )

Bleh

Feeling particularly uninspired. Wanted to write drabbles, including a return drabble for someone. No words came.

Bleh.

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My recent post in Ethics of the Vampire Slayer points out just why the idea of Spike being redeemed disturbs me:

The only vampire that she met who was good had been cursed. Until everything happened with Spike, she didn't believe that an unsouled vampire was capable of love at all. And she just realized and verbalized that two episodes ago.

She doesn't have much practice with thinking of vampires as anything other than evil. And even now, I don't think that she believes that Spike is or could ever be good. And that's the reason why she hasn't ever questioned the need to slay. Vampires aren't good.

And if she questions that, she questions her entire Slaying career. If all vampires are capable of change, then does the Slayer have the right to Slay? And if she questions that, then she has hundreds, thousands of potential murders on her shoulders.

If Spike can be redeemed, then Buffy is a murderer. Because if one vampire can be saved, others could.

Me? I don't think that Spike can be good. And I don't think that Buffy's a killer.

Friends

'Cause I just went and added a couple of people, I thought that I'd just talk about my reasons and such.

I add people when they interest me. I do have a couple of... you might call them guidelines. I don't link people who almost never post. I don't link people who don't care about at least one thing that I care about, be if Buffy, *NSYNC, queerness in general, or whathaveyou. I generally don't add people who abuse the English language. I'm rather fond of it myself and like it to be protected like the fragile jewel that it is.

Y'all can stop laughing now.

I have a few people as friends who have never friended me and probably never will. Or so I guess at this point. Doesn't bug me and I don't take it personally. Every so often, I check to make sure that I'm still reading their journals and if I'm not, I take them off. No big.

Mmmhmm. There you go. A look into my brain.

Oh! And I tend to get attached to people who take my icons. Because. I made it and they liked it.

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I'm thinking of making this icon my default. Because I am, in fact, that lame.

[edit: It is now my default icon. Revel in my lameness. And then giggle at how cute Justin is.]

Anyone want?

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This is hilarious. Oh, Lance.

Mmmm.

Brilliant essay on Normal Again.