Friends

I don't actually keep track of who my friends are. I mean, I have like 80. I cannot keep track of 80 people. I can keep track of 25. Tops. On my good days.

Just checked and I have 87 people who read this journal. Huh. I swear that there were less the last time that I checked.

So, how do y'all(like the funny and wonderful and corrupting silvia) know when someone's dropped you? Do you have a list somewhere? Do you keep track of stuff? Is there a way to get LJ to tell you?

Singing

I sing along to songs. If I'm alone, I sing out loud. If I'm not alone, I sing in my head. This is why synthed voices can bug me. Because a voice doesn't sound that way naturally and how the fuck am I supposed to sing along when it doesn't sound right? I can't make my voice sound fake and that bugs me because that's how the song is and I need to be able to sing it correctly.

When I sing along with *NSYNC, I'm constantly switching between the lead and the harmony. Even though I know that I can't replicate the sound of five voices, I still try. I don't even do it on purpose.

I have Issues.

Eeee!

Guess what I got in the mail today?

My own signed copy of KANE, the first CD from Christian Kane(aka Lindsey from Angel)'s country band.

Eeep!!

In Love...

Christian's voice is pretty. Yes. Very.

Also, I find it amusing that one of Matthew's stories is named 'Requited Love' as one of my few stories is also named that. Of course, mine is Buffy/Xander and Willow/Tara and his is Lance/Justin and Jc/Joey, but still. Amusing. Wonder if I came with up my title after reading his stuff. I can't remember at this point.

Random fandom/fic thoughts

It's really annoying when the owner of a site doesn't have descriptions of the stories. Just has a title and no pairing, no rating. Never bother clicking on those. I don't have the time to read through everything.

Oh, and if your name isn't e.e. cummings(thanks, Rachel), try to fucking capitalize. Sorry. It's just that we have conventions to make things easier for everyone and not capitalizing is like deciding that today would be a fun day not to use your turn signals.

Sigh...

Our guys sing so pretty. And I don't even care about the wrongness of that sentence. Because... yes. Which reminds me that I need to buy a shirt from there as soon as I have money.

Did they age-screen the people for last year's Christmas special? Because there are no teenies. None. That's amazing.

Christian Kane...

Must lust over and adore. All pictures from CK: Central.

( So. Pretty. )

Sometimes...

I wonder where I would be if I hadn't found this. Found Buffy. Found *NSYNC. Found LJ. Found MBTV.

They're such a big part of my life. Sometimes the only good part.

I wonder if I'd be the kind of fan who would cry at a concert. I've never been, so I don't know. I think that I would. If only because of how much they're given me, how many doors loving *NSYNC has opened.

When I listen to *NSYNC, when I watch Buffy, when I hang around here or on the forums, I never feel the need to cut. Because I cut to be real and to be alive and when I'm doing those things, I feel real. I feel connected. I don't need the blood to prove that I'm alive when I'm doing something I love.

So, sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I didn't have that. But not too hard. Because I don't want to imagine that world.

Opened up Win Player.

And in the two-person *NSYNC thing for artist direct, it's Justin and Lance. JC's in the three-person one with them.

Everyone seems to have picked up on Lance's astonishing hotness.

Is it wrong of me to feel the urge to do the 'I told you so' dance?

Britney...

You know what bugs me? That she went from Stronger to Slave 4 U. I fucking adore Stronger. The only 'strong woman' song that she put to video.

She should have done Lonely, not fucking Slave.

Hmmm...

I highly suspect that the track that morpheus tells me is Bombastic Love is, in fact, not. Perhaps because of the complete lack of the word 'bombastic'.

Nick and Howie are so the Wes/Gunn of the boyband world. Adorable and obvious.