What he does here and how he feels afterward makes me think of a Buffy quote. After Xander leaves Anya at the altar, he's talking about how it makes him feel and he says, "But then I left... and ever since... I've had this painful hole inside. And I'm the idiot that dug it out."
The Doctor in such agony at the end of the episode created that ending for himself. Because he really does hate himself that much for being a killer in the Time War. Which breaks my heart for him. He doesn't believe that he deserves to be with Rose. "There's someone for everyone," and he just made it so that Rose can have someone else. Everything that the New Doctor says about Donna, about her attitude covering up her insecurity, that's true of the Doctor who stays in our universe, as well. He's arrogant and high-handed and... believes that he destroys everything he touches and couldn't possibly deserve a chance at happiness.
Seriously, at this point in time, I can see the Doctor doing the River relationship. He already knows she's going to die (for him, oh, for him), he doesn't really want someone else in the TARDIS anyway, so that part's all right. Giving her that dying request of hers could function as something of a penance for what he feels he took from her.
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Date: 2008-07-06 08:32 pm (UTC)What he does here and how he feels afterward makes me think of a Buffy quote. After Xander leaves Anya at the altar, he's talking about how it makes him feel and he says, "But then I left... and ever since... I've had this painful hole inside. And I'm the idiot that dug it out."
The Doctor in such agony at the end of the episode created that ending for himself. Because he really does hate himself that much for being a killer in the Time War. Which breaks my heart for him. He doesn't believe that he deserves to be with Rose. "There's someone for everyone," and he just made it so that Rose can have someone else. Everything that the New Doctor says about Donna, about her attitude covering up her insecurity, that's true of the Doctor who stays in our universe, as well. He's arrogant and high-handed and... believes that he destroys everything he touches and couldn't possibly deserve a chance at happiness.
Seriously, at this point in time, I can see the Doctor doing the River relationship. He already knows she's going to die (for him, oh, for him), he doesn't really want someone else in the TARDIS anyway, so that part's all right. Giving her that dying request of hers could function as something of a penance for what he feels he took from her.