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I'm not good at sharing. The emotional shit that I mention in here? It's like, I don't know, tip of the iceberg stuff.

Right now, I'm not in pain, which is probably why I'm letting myself talk. Even now, with this little information, there's a 50/50 chance that I'll delete this post before I send it.

But back when I was cutting. Well, cutting regularly, because I have actually done a touch somewhat recently. Back when I was cutting regularly, I mentioned it maybe once in every twenty times. Something like that. I don't really remember. Bad memory.

When I hurt, I clam up. The bigger the hurt is, the less I'll talk about it. When I'm pain-free, I'm a regular chatterbox.

Every single post of mine that deals with pain was agonized over and nearly deleted several times.

FYI, you know.

And I am more open here than anywhere else in my life.

Buffy's Big Bad

Just putting down my thoughts so far. It's Big. It's Bad. But it's not all-powerful. Thus far, it seems to have definite limits.
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I'm in an organizing mood.

So, I'll be going through my friends list, adding and removing. If you get removed, it's probably not personal, unless it is. Most likely, it's just 'cause I'm trying to cut things down and be more organized. This will most likely last until tomorrow, when I'll redo everything. Or not. Anyway, fair warning.

And remember: "I'm here to kill you, not to judge you."

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Have abandoned my organization thing after adding someone and removing no one.

Now, I'm trying to figure out my Secret Santa Slash Story.

Hmm. Have some ideas. Hopefully at least one will pan out.

In other news:

Paul Gross has replaced B/X as my wallpaper. Specifically, Men With Brooms Paul Gross. He's sexy, yo. Found the wallpaper here.

Neither Mary nor I were comfortable with actually being in the same room, so she's sent me a check in lieu of me getting my last paycheck in person.

If I could only pick one fandom to have, it would still be Buffy, but due South has managed to leap into the second place position, completely blowing by popslash. And Fraser/Kowalski is only a hairsbreath behind Buffy/Xander in my favorite pairings list.
( 10 favorite pairings, in order )

Only two of my pairings are het. None are f/f. Two are RPS. All are from different fandoms.