I tried calling you during the commercial in the middle of the bathroom scene. No answer, so I figured you were ignoring phones in favor of watching.

Gah! Noooooo!

Rape is an act of violence, not passion. I can totally see Spike committing rape (I mean, yeah, like you said, "Hello, unrepentant murderer?"). But on Buffy? I have issues with that. I mean, yeah. I see how Joss meant to build the scene, but, no. You don't do that to someone you actually love. And I'm a B/S shipper, so I'd like to believe he really loves her. But, that doesn't jive with what happened tonight. Shit like that is not about love. It's about anger, and domination, and possession, and humiliation, and denigration, and a bunch of other nasty -ations.

So, somewhere along the line, the love he felt (gotta stick to my illusions somehow) was destroyed, and replaced with something not. Something that was more about his pain than about wanting her to be happy.

I'm sad. I never liked how Buffy treated him once he was chipped. I guess I'm a sucker for unrepentant murderers.