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Are there any other authors out there who go back through their old stuff and find themselves reacting as if someone else had written it?
I've been going through my dS stories in prep for finishing up two WIPs that I'm working on, and I couldn't read my Fraser pov Ray/Ray fic. I wrote the fic, I know what it says, but I couldn't read it, because Ray/Ray breaks my heart. And I read my one big sex story (Fraser/RayK, natch) and thought it was totally hot. I fell in love with my versions of the characters, which makes sense, because they are how I see the guys, but it's also really cool, because I love my fic. I think that it's really good. Two years ago, one year ago, and I would have been whimpering (to myself only) about how horrible every word that I've ever written is, but now... I may just have more confidence as a writer. Or I'm just better now, as a writer, than I was two years ago, which I also believe to be true (I suspect that when I do get around to reading my older work -- BtVS, *NSYNC, etc -- I'll be pulling out the red pen).
Whatever the reason, it's really nice. Tomorrow, I have work at four, but sometime before that I'm going to be rewatching Perfect Strangers as prep for the next section of Queering the Text. I may also rewatch Victoria's Secret so that I can do more work on Diamondhead.
I've been going through my dS stories in prep for finishing up two WIPs that I'm working on, and I couldn't read my Fraser pov Ray/Ray fic. I wrote the fic, I know what it says, but I couldn't read it, because Ray/Ray breaks my heart. And I read my one big sex story (Fraser/RayK, natch) and thought it was totally hot. I fell in love with my versions of the characters, which makes sense, because they are how I see the guys, but it's also really cool, because I love my fic. I think that it's really good. Two years ago, one year ago, and I would have been whimpering (to myself only) about how horrible every word that I've ever written is, but now... I may just have more confidence as a writer. Or I'm just better now, as a writer, than I was two years ago, which I also believe to be true (I suspect that when I do get around to reading my older work -- BtVS, *NSYNC, etc -- I'll be pulling out the red pen).
Whatever the reason, it's really nice. Tomorrow, I have work at four, but sometime before that I'm going to be rewatching Perfect Strangers as prep for the next section of Queering the Text. I may also rewatch Victoria's Secret so that I can do more work on Diamondhead.
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Oh yeah, both in the "wow, that's pretty good!" and the "who wrote this nonsense?" variety.
I may just have more confidence as a writer. Or I'm just better now, as a writer, than I was two years ago, which I also believe to be true
Most likely both, hon. I'm not too into the dS fandom, but I have greatly enjoyed all your SG commentaries... Good luck with the writing!
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